When I wrote down 2023, I realized that 2023 had already passed. When I look back on 2023, I feel like I’ve done nothing and yet, also feel utterly helpless.
The entire 2023 was a year when I totally lost my desire to express myself. My JiKe, Weibo, WeChat Moments were almost all in a state of stopping or semi-stopping updates. Whenever I wanted to record something, I typed a lot of characters and then deleted them one by one.
As age increases, desire grows, but abilities do not. On my birthday, Alipay popped up a happy birthday message for me. I felt time was flying by and felt empty about this year. Most of life’s rage comes from one’s own incompetence and the inability to satisfy desires. Among them, the remarkable achievements of my peers on social media and the internet also bring me feelings of jealousy.